Waves

I have always been memorized by waves.  The ease in which they move. Freely, without thought or direction. I think people need to adopt this movement.  People are constantly trying to control every aspect of their lives. Trying to plan out everything to the last detail, but what happens when things don’t go their way? They are left feeling unaccomplished and not good enough.  Their souls and dreams are crushed by the illusion that things need to be done a certain way and by a certain time.

I’m going to tell you a very important thing, that it took me some time to learn myself. Life does not need to be lived a certain way. You don’t need to feel bad if your journey looks differently than the journeys of people around you. You don’t need to graduate from high school and go straight to uni. You don’t need to get married and have children before the age of 30, you don’t even need to get married at all if you don’t want to.  You also don’t need to know what you want to do as soon as you graduate. It took me 7 years after I graduated to figure out what I truly wanted to do with my life and even though I wish I would have known earlier, I’m glad I didn’t choose something because I thought I had to.

I’m proud of my path. I don’t care if it looks differently than other 25 year olds. Comparing is and always has been my worst enemy, and I chose every day not to compare where I am in life to those around me.

*Focus on what you can control and let the rest flow around you.

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so.. this is 25?

As I sit here at the university with 4 papers, 10 forum posts, and a 20 page take home final to write I find my mind wondering. Is this really the life we’re all intended to have. School, work, die.  Even writing that, it just sounds so depressing.  I am entering my final year of school (for this degree, **eye roll) and I cannot wait to.. hold a piece of paper and say “I did it”.  I wrote countless numbers of papers, had way too many sleepless, anxiety-filled nights, took one too many classes learning things that I will never use again.. hmm okay. I know I sound extremely stuck up and over-privileged, but I just can’t grasp the concept that this is all there is to life. I am beyond thankful to have gotten an education and lucky enough to have my parents help pay for it. I just wish I could see what my future looks like at this moment. I want to know that all this hard work and stress will be worth it in the end. I want to know my broken heart will one day be loved and appreciated by someone.  I want to know that money will not be something I focus my life on. I would be happy to work at a minimal paying job as long as it’s something I wake up every day wanting and loving to do.
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