I would love if the person I am today, could meet the person I was. The person I was a year ago, 5 years ago and most importantly the person I was 10 years ago. I think both versions of myself could teach each other a lot of things.
I love the person today. I care less about people think of me, I put my wants and needs first and I am much more happy and confident in my own skin. The girl I used to be was much more care-free, and I miss that about myself. I didn’t care about materialistic things, about dating or about the future. I wish I still have a little more of her in me.
Ok, so my ming got a little sidetracked and this post and going to take a quick little U-Turn.
I had an amazing weekend. I got to dance my heart out, see a person I have been looking forward to seeing for a while and finally got a night out with some friends. I felt like I made some nice connections, got to catch up with some friends I haven’t seen in a while and felt like I made a really good impression on this person I’ve been waiting to see.
Monday rolls around, and the outsound noise starts to fill my head. The different perspectives of the events that happened, different views of the person that had made me so happy. And suddenly, a night that pretty near close to perfect, was destroyed, by other people pushing their views, opinions and thoughts on me.
Why, as a society, do we feel the need to define everything all the time? To put meaning to every action and everything that happens. Why can’t we just leave things as they are and let time be the true definer?
I was fine having a weekend with a person without any need for a definition. Just a fun weekend, getting to know someone new in my life.
I don’t need constant communication and validation from someone to make me happy. I can be happy with memories, with a text here and there when the person is thinking of me.
I hate how our society has ruined this process and how people feel the need to inject themselves into everyone else’s business. The biggest goal I have made for myself this year was to stop gossipping about people and to stop surrounding myself by people who feel the need to talk negatively about others. It has been amazing to see how much my life has transformed and how much happier I am as a person.
I totally understand that there is a time and place to have a good rant. I think that’s healthy and necessary, but just make sure that whoever you are ranting to, is someone you can trust and someone that understands you just need a quick rant to get yourself back o track.
The more positivity you put out into the world, the more you will get back, I guarantee it.
Despite the memory of my amazing weekend being slightly getting pushed off course a bit, I am very happy. If this was the only weekend I ever get to spend with this person, at least I can sit here and tell you, I stayed true to myself, my boundaries and what my heart was telling me.
All the other noise doesn’t matter!